slay the dragons

i want to beat the ever living shit out of the kid who was mean to adam. i don't even know him and i hate him.

i swear, it's like everyone i know is experiencing a huge lack of compassion in their lives. the situation on campus is really upsetting. it's tough knowing i'm going to have to play the tour guide and try to sell my school and be positive when i'm also fighting bias incidents and potentially racist administration responses.

"hate crime" is a loaded phrase. don't use it lightly. in fact, if you're white, i'm not sure it's an appropriate phrase at all.

i want to slay the frat boys who showed up to my liberal/queer/feminist/aware/fair/political campus and made it something else. it's not just them, but they're helping. they're the most visible.

i want to slay the homophobia and gender bias and loathing of anything feminine present in the sneering at some queer boys, "hello, ladies." first of all, gay does NOT equal female. these are entirely different traits, first. second, being gay and/or being female is not inherently bad. third, being feminine is not wrong or weak or an insult, whether the person exhibiting feminine traits identifies as male or female.

i want to slay the racism inherent in some white students' continued shock that there on students of color on *their* campus.

i want to slay the administration for automatically associating a protest of white privelege with the black student union. mostly i think it's wrong to essentially censor them, to send an administrator to monitor them, when there is no evidence that they've done something wrong.

i want to slay the entire system of "democracy", including the "major" parties, the third parties, etc.

disenfranchised really doesn't begin to describe this feeling. and i'm not giving up, i'm more resolved to fight than ever. i'm just mad that it has to be like this, mad that this shitty system has been around and fucking up for so long and no one realized it or nipped it in the bud sooner.

(what do i mean, you ask? i mean the failure of welfare, racist voting practices, our attempts to police the world . . . even simple things, like providing all kids with equal schooling and making college affordable. giving the world clean drinking water. supporting the EPA instead of gutting it. these are simple things most of us can agree on - teach the kids, leave the planet in an inhabitable state for our children.)

so i fight. i don't know how, i don't feel adequately equipped. but if i don't show up and act as the ground troops and mature and take office and take over and make it better, if i don't learn now and equip myself with as much knowledge as i can while i have the time to do it and concentrate on it, who will?